June 5th, 2013
1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.

4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.
June 2nd, 2013
when your little girl
asks you if she’s pretty
your heart will drop like a wineglass
on the hardwood floor
part of you will want to say
of course you are, don’t ever question it
and the other part
the part that is clawing at
you
will want to grab her by her shoulders
look straight into the wells of
her eyes until they echo back to you
and say
you do not have to be if you don’t want to
it is not your job
both with feel right
one will feel better
she will only understand the first
when she wants to cut her hair off
or wear her brother’s clothes
you will feel the words in your
mouth like marbles
you do not have to be pretty if you don’t want to
it is not your job

it is not your job | Caitlyn Siehl (via alonesomes)

for some reason this brought me to the verge of tears

(via queerfucker)

(via girlwithalessonplan)

May 27th, 2013

I’m Alive?

Guys. I just spent a full school week (Mon-Fri) chaperoning students on an overnight field trip in a city far from our school, and I’m ALIVE. I survived. And nobody died, got lost, or touched each other (at least I HOPE). 

iamlittlei:

hithertokt:

Wait. So. I have to go to school tomorrow?

Me too.

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yes. everything about this.

May 19th, 2013

I’m going on a week-long trip with juniors and seniors tomorrow and I’m really nervous about it.

May 16th, 2013

2 words and suddenly 7 school-days left feels so far away…

crystalintheclassroom:

It’s already been a difficult week with my “Period X.”  

All of my other classes were so excited for our rotation stations around the classroom (kindergarten teachers really do have the best strategies) for college / investment week. 

I had to do some intense google’ing, but there were 6 total stations:

1. A college essay that was wait list’ed
2. Research station, “What makes a  good essay” 
3. A college essay that was rejected
4. Research station, “What are common college application prompts? What is the essay prompts for the colleges you’re interested in?” 
5. A college essay that was accepted 
6. Browsing station — tons and tons of college guidebooks and resources from all the schools that shared with me for students to leisurely flip through and get excited about possibilities.  

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The catch was, for stations #1,#3,#5, I didn’t tell students which essays were from admitted or rejected applicants — they had to take notes at each station and “judge” the essays at the end of the rotation (we’re doing this all week) for quality and explain to me their rationale for an admit/deny decision. 

Frankly, I had been having so much fun rotating around the classroom with them, that I forgot about the bad until Period X came in wild and crazy.

They were so poorly behaved and misfits that by the end when the bell rang, I was ready to lay on the floor. Exhausted. Frustrated. 

This morning, an awesome 6th grader shyly comes up to my desk and is quiet and awkward (for someone who’s usually gregarious.) 

Her: Miss? I have something I found that I think I need to show you.
Me:  What is it? 
Her: We thought about throwing it away or ripping it, but I just thought I’d give it to you so no one else would see
Me? ::pause::

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Reblogging because I LOVE the stations idea, and it’s totally adaptable for juniors!!

Only in Private School

So my juniors and I are working on college essays, and I had them choose three of the common app questions and brainstorm what they might write.

Like a solid 80% of them want to write about their vacation houses.

I’m trying to figure out a way to nicely say, “Writing about your vacation house is a. not unique, and b. makes you sound sort of entitled.”

We’re going to have a fun conversation about topics tomorrow!

May 14th, 2013

My Heart Melted

“Ms. Nickelodeon!! You can’t just leave us hanging like this! We want to read book two!!”

—all of my students today, talking about the ending of Persepolis, Book 1